...hala nakalimutan ko!

as i woke this morning there's only one thing i remembered,"hala, p.e. today no...i hate swimming!" yun lang nothing else. when we arrived in school i remembered something again,"oh no! i didn't post another thing in my blog yesterday!".you may think it's not a big deal but for me it is. simply because i want to keep my promises since the first day i wrote in this blog, i want to achieve my goal of having a promise to be made' cause in my whole life i haven't accomplished a single promise. maybe because i'm too scared to make or reach those goals or simply because i don't have enough basis in doing such things. maybe because i'm not entitled to fulfill those promises or maybe because i'm just damn foolish that i don't remember that there's a possibility that i hurt anyone else.

ARGH!

i hate myself! i hate my life! i hate those promises. (sori kung sa tingin niyo mababaw--> but wait i'll explain thoroughly) maraming beses na akong umiyak and nagalit sa sarili ko. umabot pa sa isang time na i told myself i would never be the same. i was hurt with someone. i hurt myself and i believe nasaktan ko rin yung mga taong nagmamahal sa'kin(just in case meron). it's hard to remind myself over and over again na MICHAEL ITO KA NA DAPAT na HOY! DIBA BAGO KA NA? nakakainis, mahirap pala, mahirap palan magpanggap. tawagin niyo na akong plastic kung gusto niyo pero naging mapagpanggap na ako in so many times. nagpanggap ako na mabait ako. nagpanggap ako na magaling ako. want more...ito na ung worst...

NAGPANGGAP AKO NA HINDI AKO NASASAKTAN.

grabe noh! isipin niyo, magpanggap ka na hindi ka nasasaktan, na wala kang pakiramdam...ang hirap nun. i hate promises. i hate those useless promises. those promises to be broken. i hate everything else. KAINIS TALAGA! i would like to end this in a simple quote(original): Promises ensure so many things; promises also ensures that promises is to be broken. (gets niyo?)(dual meaning!)(go people)

**Heavenly God, we would like to praise You for giving us another day in this kingdom. We have done unfair things to You once if not twice that may have affected our lives. You have given us so many things that a single prayer or a single word is not enough in expressing our gratitude. Love and unselfishness are simple things You have continously given us. We walk, we laugh; and the best part...we fall and stand up again. In promises we make, may we see a light through the smallest hole that we see, a light that may change our lives forever, Amen